Just got back from the Cancer Agency in Surrey and wanted to share a little bit of what you didn't know you were praying for.
Until now, I haven't looked like I'm sick. And since the pain in my back has been lessening, I've been moving more easily. Wednesday I pulled something in my lower back and then yesterday my hair started to fall out. Today a lot more fell out. I'm starting to look like I'm an oncology patient. Sleep didn't come easily last night as my heart was struggling with fear. I'm fighting a battle and I don't know how to fight.
When I arrived at the Cancer Agency this morning I was told that my bloodwork from yesterday came back with some values that were too low to receive chemo. We repeated the bloodwork this morning and thankfully they had come up just enough in the last 24 hrs to be able to get it. I was relieved and thankful that our prayers were answered in this way.
In a few minutes I'll be going to the salon to get my hair cut. It is very hard for me to watch myself loose all of my curls. I know that my beauty isn't in my curls. Losing my hair is making this journey even more of a reality. So I'm going to try and make it a little easier by cutting it shorter. It might all fall out, it might not.
Dad had asked me yesterday if he could take some pictures of me. I wasn't ready. Today with tears streaming down my face he took some pictures of the three of us and some of just Matias and me. My hair was down & Matias was playing with my curls. As his fingers played with my curls, some came out in his hand. I don't have the strength today today to post these pictures but I might someday.
Thank you for praying me through this day... even though you may not have known what you were praying for.
Thank you Krista for sharing your heart and struggles through this blog. Your words brought tears to my eyes and there's an aching in my heart for you. Know that you are not alone in this. I'm committing to pray for you and Xhevat and Matias everyday. Even though we don't know each other, I want you to know I love you sister IN Christ. Cling to Jesus! Phil. 4:13.
ReplyDeleteKrista you are so brave going through this and allowing us a small glimpse into the battle you and your family are dealing with. I send all my prayers to you and your family and I think of you often and know you will fight with all your heart to beat this disease within. Stay strong my friend, we are with you and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteKrista, praying for complete healing for you! Upholding you and your entire family in prayer. May the peace that passes all understanding guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
ReplyDeleteOh, Krista - my heart is breaking for you. Thank you for sharing this intimate insight of your soul. My prayer is that God will show His Grace & Mercy - every second of each day. Cancer is waging war in your body, but it cannot destroy who you are in Christ.
ReplyDeleteHi Krista. We just wanted you to know that we are praying for you every day! You have always had such a caring heart for others and we trust that all the people that you have reached out to are all praying for you now! Sending you our love and prayers. Jerry and Lois
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